roar of frustration « the brain — an apparatus with which we think we think.

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benjamin tay puay chong
born sep 19 1988,
mshs/ri/rjc/cambridge

Recorded here are attempts to relate my thought processes in written form. Also recorded are the tenets of life I passively endorse; and the unfortunate disgust I associate with them.

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June 29, 2009, 10:41 pm
Filed under: daily occurrences

i am so tired of being cordial.

i’m sick of being the calm, cool, collected, nondescript, tagging-along goody-two-shoes; i’ve been suppressing my urge to just YELL and TOTALLY GO WHINY AND BITCHING ABOUT LIFE.
i need to break down. i dont have an armor of courage, im not brave, im infinitely feeble; i feel like i just dont… fit in.

IM NOT COOL.
IM NOT CALM.
IM NOT COLLECTED.

I JUST NEED TO SCREAM. I CAN NO LONGER FAKE A SMILE ANYMORE.
and the worst part?

ALL MY FACADES ARE NOT PAYING OFF AT ALL.
SO MUCH FOR PR.

…
sometimes i dont know why i even bother acting.

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